caitlin_189

I just had a thought and knew I should share. :)


So.. we all have christmas and get in the best of moods right? (except for all the scrooges out there and stuff) but, what I was thinking was...wouldn't people who lived back in the day that owned slaves be in a better mood and be nice to their slaves just a little bit?

Idk. If I lived back then.. I think I would've been one of those people who like..bought slaves to set them free or something..I just don't see myself being a fighter or beater or whateverr.... :) hah

welllll.

I guess I should tell you all that my life will be over soon. :/


This would be because of how I lost the camera. I swear I'm about to be the most depressed person you've ever met.. not that you'll even get to see me because I'll be on lockdown.
My last chance of hope is my professor who may have grabbed it..but I e-mailed her last night around like..6? and she hasn't e-mailed me back yet.

ughhhh :/

I'm watching kind of an old movie..and well. .. i was just thinking about how much times I have changed.  Everything from clothes to how we talk to like..even our way of thinking.  It's just pretty amazing to see how people go on and grow and change with the times and yet history still manages to repeat itself the same as it did in the past when all of us are changing...


Just that little thought to ponderr.. :)

so.  I decided to tell you about all the different things that have been getting on my nerves.

-hipocracy
-back stabbing
-when I do irresponsible things
-mistakes
-bad friends
-lying
-rude people
-and my all time favorite... procrastination. :[

..which seems to be my favorite.

Just curioius.  :)Poll #1309031 COMING BACK.. :/
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 3

How many people are coming back to the Learning Community class in the spring semester?

This is just one of those nights. :/


So, every wednesday I go to my dad's house in North McKinney and spend the night and it's the only time  I get to see this family...well. Tonight, I decided to be really irresponsible and stupid and leave my parents 1000 dollar camera at school...yeah.I'm an idiot.  So, anyways I call the school, go back up there, talk to campus police, librarians, workers, check everywhere and ..it's nowhere to be found.. I think..that my mother is deffinitely going to kill me tomorrow. I'm a little scared for my life.

 :)... hm. i wonder if I'm even allowed to say stizz on here. :/   ahh. oh welll.


so. I have about 18 or so of these little posties left. hah.  I think that being a busy bumpkin this semester has deffinitely taken it's toll but I am determined to get it done and therefore will be doing it!  :)

So you all will be talking with me(hopefully i'm not talking to myself) quite a bit over the next 24 hours.  That is, if I get a hold of you all. :)


Later to all, I wonder if this counts as a school related post since it's about livejournal.. ? hmmm. (I'm Pondering)..

 On Tuesday in class Professor Gunderson talked about the John Brown raid's and how people didn't really care to stand by him when he was doing his crazy stunts and actually doing what he believed in.  I find it kind of hard to believe that they were all talk and he was the one who would follow through and stand up for his beliefs.  Well, I'm here to say WAY TO GO JOHN BROWN!!  :)   I think that he should've been a hero among those who couldn't defend their ideals and stand up for themselves.

Everyone is talking about how this is the end and yadda yadda yadda.  It's NOT!! We still have a few more days and shoot if all else fails we can all keep in touch through livejournal. ;)  But, for history the projects all seem to revolve around the same time period that we are going over now in class.. does anyone know how much this counts for?

 :/ that would be me.


my momma just dropped some chistmas thing on me and it hit me in the face and I know have a fat lip... lame :/

hahaha
but kinda funny.



anywho.

So, class today interesting. I have so much to do and so little time.  I am looking forward to giving our presentations though because everyone presents differently and we were deffinitely given a little free reign on this project.  So, and I sadly say that next semester I will be unable to attend the learning community.. because Dr. A-C's mad voice and Prof. Gunderson's puppy killing spree. :/   hah. nahh. just kidding! but I can't take the class really because I don't need it for my transfer and I'm not even sure that this one now will transfer over because of what degree I'm going after.

 ..YEAH. they broke into my house this weekend.


:/
I was deffinitely very upset with them.


EXPLANATION:

I told my friend where the key was so she could let my dog out for me while I was working on Friday night and she did that for me and everything was all good and dandy and then come Saturday night I get a phone call at work around 11:15/11:30 and it's her.  I'm like okayy...? where's this going?.  So, she proceeds to ask where I am... and duh.. I'm obviously at work..(did she seriously just ask that?) anyways she goes on to tell me that she is at my house..inside it.. waiting for me to come home and she did this because I didn't answer my phone and she knew where the key was.... 
ok. well I'm not too upset yet, but still.. hello breaking and entering...especially since she brought like.. 3 people with her and noone was at my house as my parents were out of town and I was at work.. 
So, I tell her that I'll probably be home in about 20 minutes but to go ahead and go to the party and I'll meet her there.  

Let me proceed to tell you what my house looked like when I got home. :[
...empty beer cans and taco bell containers..all over my living room ..(yes. i was furious) as well as papers and clean laundry that had previoiusly been on my couch folded and neat and was now scattered across the living room floor.. all lights left on. my blind/diabetic dog left outside(we have a pool and she knew not to leave the dog out)... AND the other dog had pooped on the floor. 

yes. seriously. i was upset. so I go to call and figure out what the !@#$ she was thinking and one of the girls who had come with her to my house says in the background.. "is she seriously whining about that. It's nothing to cry about."

yeahhh.. lame night for them. and me since I was left cleaning all that crap up. :/


I sincerely feel that I do not know those that I called my best friends as well as I thought.

 SO. Today was a pretty intense day, but it seem like lately that's the story of my life; and I actually like it.  This morning at 8 I woke up in my motel 6 hotel room to go to a Texas State campus tour with a friend to help out... which she ended up missing because she woke up later than I did...hah.  So we went to talk to an admissions counselor and the school sounds pretty cool.  By this time it was around 11:30 and we had to get gas before we headed back to good ol' T.C.  Well we got here around 4:15ish and I browsed over my notes one last time and took the 15 minute drive out to the school and took my test :) and finished around 5... and then had to be at work at 5:30 and am just now getting home to watch my all-time favorite show...HEROES :)
I think therefore I am. 



But, continuing on from my intense lifestyle..I really think it's how I was born to function.  I spent this weekend in Austin and where I'm normally working around 25+ hours from Friday-Sunday I got to sleep and be lazy and I studied for like...8 hours(I swear... who knew?) and just was goofy with one of my best friends and even though we did so much.. I still feel like I did hardly anything?

Oh well.. return to the exteme life as of 11/24 :)




P.S.    I got a tattoo! :)  last night in austin I ended up actually getting TWO tattoos...of the same thing..hah but one was free and will fade probably within a week and sadly it's my favorite because it is SO random and I noone will probably ever know :/

hah. :)



P.P.S.    I really don't think the test was as hard as everyone is saying it was.  I did pretty bad on the first test and I studied alot for this one, but I do feel like I did really well on this and I swear I knew most of the answers.   Though I probably should have done better I'm thinking maybe high b low a?  (well, hoping I guess)

  So today has been quite the stresser.  I'm supposed to go to College Station/Austin this weekend[Friday-Monday] for college visits and my friend and I were supposed to stay at her brother's house for the weekend so we didn't have to rent a hotel and we could save money.  But of course, plans fell through and her and her brother are now fighting and we're left without a place to stay this weekend. :/  LAME, I know.  Well, I think we have to drive down to college station tomorrow and then drive back here and then on Monday drive to Austin and then drive back because neither of us have money for hotels; especially since I've got to pay 3700 dollars for my car. >_<  Such a nice weekend, right? hah.



Ohhhh well, taking the test should add to all the fun of the festivities too.

Well, here I am at home sick :/ which is way lame because I feel like we haven't been on schedule at all and I really need to get back on track, plus I can hardly speak because I lost my voice.

Anyways, I was wondering what day we are actually suppose to present our first ..phase?(i guess) of our projects. I also would feel extremely generous to anyone who could tell me what Professor Gunderson's e-mail is so that I could e-mail her my history essay. aghh. I have it all done and am about to do it on turnitin.com but as for the paper copy I need to send it to her via e-mail and bring one in just in case. GEEZ, things get so complicated when your sick. This is seriously lame. :/

So, Obama won the election.  I know that Obama has some good policies and I definitely don't support all of McCain's policies but this election was NOT fair.  This morning in my philosophy class one of my classmates and I were talking about the election and she informed me of how certain people who voted for Obama were questioned by news crews about Obama's policies.  They claimed they supported each and every policy the crew asked about and after these claims the news station told them that these policies were actually McCains.  Just goes to show how much people paid attention to the actual issues for this election.  Kinda sad that this had to be the first election that I got to vote in but oh well, it's definitely a date that will go in the history books!

So I actually really liked the movie. There were so many twists in the end and I love movies that make you think. I thought it would be some boring movie that's been around since like the 60's but it wasn't (not that I don't love some movies from back in the day). It made me realize how much luck I have to be living the life I am. Even though I complain sometimes about school and/or work I really shouldn't take them for granted because they are what will lead me to live a better life. People like Patrick Kenzie and Michael MacDonald have lived through hard times and come out stronger for it and I definitely admire them for it. 


Well, off to work!  ...hah. oh the irony

To start off, what did we do in class yesterday?  I wasn't able to go because I'm almost positive I had pink eye..which is contagious.. and gross. :/

I'm pretty sure we talked about the election if I remember correctly and I really wish I would've been there to see what everyone else thought(so any points yall remember about the discussion would be very helpful). 

Something I did notice though was that Obama doesnt ever where blue? I'm not sure why but I thought it was interesting and both candidates ties were striped as well as Bob's. I also noticed that McCain namedrops quite a bit, even when relating to Obama..(Joe the Plumber).

Obama did make a convincing argument though when it came to the whole town-hall meetings thing.  His stance about the election not being about their feelings was true, however when McCain pulls the "it hurt my feelings" line he's using pathos and relating to the people, which is a pretty good idea.  Also, Obama says "if" I'm president and McCain was saying "when" I'm president. 

Overall I think McCain kicked ass in this debate. He related to the people, he made several accusations against Obama which may have to be researched to find truth but work for him at the time and he may have mentioned people such as Nancy Reagan, Mayor Bloomburg, and Joe the plumber but it worked for him and helped to provide a strong argument in his favor.



BY THE WAY.
I hear there's a new candidate:   THE BEARD CANDIDATE...?I'm not sure who he is, but my philosophy professor mentioned him being on the news last night?

Interesting, we've got all sorts of candidates in the running this year,,(paris, ^^beard guy, obama and mccain...and we can't forget nader!)

 welll.

today is an odd day.
and i feel like..doing something i guess. 

i want to be productive and i'm just not at all.
i'm afraid of the path my life has taken and i need to change it.. but i don't know how.
it's deffinitely not a good feeling.  :/


oh well.
ill figure something out..

first of all.
to vent.
AGHAH;LODFIAJIE.
little sisters are SO annoying. :/


so. SOO.soooo annoying.
i cant even describe it.


oh wellll...
so. lots of posts to go to get to 24 by sunday..
so.. history lecture was long today... i do find it interesting to see how all the presidential cabinet could work together and even develop problems and any type of relationship when they all lived in separate states and couldn't fly or take cars or whatever...

it would take FORever to get things done so it almost seems like they wouldn't have been able to get much done in only four years..oh well.
i guess i didn't live back then so I will never truly understand how they did things...




what a wonderful invention time travel would be... and it would make learning so much easier. hahah :)
wishful thinkinggg.

 hmm.. 

Everyone always talks about how sad and horrible people in all souls must've been and all that, but I think being brought up like that is almost good.  It teaches the soul heartbreak and inspires many. However many people were affected by the bad things going on that life will always have the memory of the passion and the inspiration of their friends and family who may have died or been hurt. Granted that at the time things like jumping off of roofs and blacks going to the same school seemed like the end of the world.. but those people stood up for what they believed in and I don't think the book should be taken so much as sad but more like a motivation for those people who live with daily turmoil and poverty. It should be an example that they can get out of bad situations and can fight for what they want!


:)WHAT A DAMN GOOD BOOK THOUGH.
I do love it!